Different things have been pushing me for a long time and I decided to finally stop fighting it. So I came here hoping to meet new people and learn everything I can.
Am I supposed to give background? I feel like this is the right path for me. No reason, just a strong pull.
The worst thing I've ever done? Six years ago, before I was even close to accepting this, I was at work, and one of the managers, who I absolutely loathed (since I like most people, that should give you an idea of how bad he was) had just finished his favorite job of making someone (me at the time) feel like something he was wiping off the bottom of his shoe.
As he was walking off, I had the image in my head of his balls and I squeezed my hand really hard. I know, I know, I'm a sick person!!
He collapsed 15 minutes later in the office and was taken to the hospital with a hernia. I sure this was just coincidence but two weeks later I was carried out of the same building with a herniated disc in my back. Now I'm disabled. I think it was a karma backlash for wishing such a bad thing on him.
Anyway, I have been very careful since then and I like to think I'm a nice person, so I'll tiptoe softly through the threads and hope to make friends here!
That really scared me to think I had even a remote chance of hurting somebody. Even though I'm sure it was a coincidence.
I know when I'm having a bad day this is a nice way to unwind.
