It is what you make it. You're just experiencing what happens when the shiny wears off. It only seems like it's not there because it's such a part of you. Like breathing, you don't tell yourself to breath you just do it, and like breathing eventually you take it for granted. It happens, life happens, you prioritize, that's all. The only way I know of to keep the cool and exciting feelings of being a pagan is to have the IQ of a ferret.
But I'll admit, ever since I left Tx. I've slacked off on my pagan-y-ness too, but I chose to, not consciously, but I saw it and did nothing about it. You just get so caught up in everything, something has to go on the back burner, so what do you pick? Boyfriend? Job? Rent? Kids? It seems so small at the time. "Oh, it's just my spirituality, it's not like I'm ditching it, just..." And the excuses start and then snowball, and before you know it you're right here, asking this very question.
The only advise I have is 'do what you do'. If what you do isn't working for you, doesn't make you happy, do something different. In the end it's just you. You have to take care of you, you can't rely on anyone else to know what's best for you, what makes you happy, what makes you tick, what makes you sing.
I think it's about time to get outta the chair. See you under the moon light.
Maybe now you're starting to understand that while I may have been born predispositioned to be pretty batty, my parents saw to it that it was a certainty and completely unavoidable. -Me