I have decided that, finally, enough was
enough over this "You can't be some heathen!" crap my parents fed to me last year. I let it slide, so that now when it's quiet again, I can privately study. I went out and bought a book, as I mentioned in a post about my familiar. It's staying hidden under my mattress when not in use, so they won't find it and force me into a meeting with the bishop.
I've been on this forum since 2007, which would make this nearly two and 1/2 to three years I've been interested. Plus the potential that I can have religion and
self-dignity makes it all the more enticing. (I love how Silver writes in her book that Pagans should not grovel before our deities - That's exactly how I felt! Nobody should be force-fed and slaved to their religion.)
Personally, I think it's time that as an almost-adult, I am old enough to choose what I want to do with my own life, with my own feelings, and with my own body. I feel more in tune with this way than with the way I was put on. The Lady and Lord will see me for who I am and now that I have finally chosen, they will (hopefully) give me the hints to the puzzle which I'm sitting before. They know who I am and need nothing but my love and devotion to help me where I'm at.
I should have done this a long time ago, but I've never needed the help so much as now. With the horse and school and all, I would like to have some counsel and guidance!
Thanks guys, for being so wonderful since I came here. It's always been comfortable here since I figured out that you didn't bite. I know I'm on the right path now, since I'm not 'staring at my feet' anymore.