I honestly don't know if this is a good section to post this in, so if Mods wish to move it somewhere more appropriate feel free.
As a warning, this is going to have a lot of "Wow I'm a highschooler and I have no idea whats going on" Type of stuff in it, although I'm going to try and avoid that as much as possible.
On to the topic at hand:
First, I suppose I should give a bit of background (thus, the highschool angsty type part)
As I started my freshman year, I met a girl in my lit class. We quickly became friends, talked more and more, traded numbers, and were well on our way to developing a relationship. After a month or so (might have had something to do with my Mother passing away at about the same time) She simply... stopped talking to me. Altogether, started completely ignoring me. It was then that I found out from another one of my friends, more about this girl that I had refused to accept before. In short, she was a compulsive liar, and everything I thought I knew about her was utterly fabricated. With this, my Mother dying, and a few other blows.. I basically became completely devastated. Took me about a year to recover, and the past three to recover fully. I did not talk to this girl for about one year, apart from the occasional "hello" or if we were forced to work together on something or whatnot. This year, she ended up in my lit class again, and since I knew almost nobody else in that class, we started talking again. After a short while we became quite good friends, sharing our relationship woes, making jokes, talking about everything. The topics started turning to what happened freshman year, and she was quite quick in coming out with one of the most heartfelt apologies I've ever heard... it didn't seem fake either, Nothing, no warnings in my head went off about it. It seemed, and still does, that she was genuinely sorry for what she did to me. She's basically spent the last 5 or so months trying to prove to me that shes not who she used to be, and after that much effort I've come to believe her.
Now for the next bit of exposition. I have found myself, over the past month or so, developing some very empathetic tendencies, like so many others here, I've become able to feel emotions of other people to some extent... It feels somewhat temporary but its most definitely there.
Now for the issue at hand: (Finally)
Yesterday, this girl hinted at me VERY strongly that she was (once more?) interested in me. And has been making a noticeable effort to talk to me, be around me, and just be closer to me at every given opportunity. I'm going to make the assumption that she is in fact interested in me. Which brings up my issue... I've always felt something for this girl, ever since I met her... but the past two days (even before she started all of this) I've been seriously falling for her.. head over heals style and whatnot. Its not really like me, normally these things happen slower with me, It doesn't feel bad... but it just doesn't seem like these are really MY emotions. I realize wholeheartedly that I simply could just be falling for this girl... but I'm wondering if empathy can feel like this too? Could what I'm feeling just be some interpretation of what she's feeling towards me? I'm not asking you guys to give me an answer per se, I can certainly figure things out for myself. I'm just seeking input.
Looking back... most of that was entirely unnecessary.... sorry for the huge Xanga post, lol....