Rowan wrote:I've sat here reading all of the responses and while it is "good?"... "nice?"... to know that I'm not alone in this problem, I still feel ashamed that I am not where I ought to be spiritually. I don't like who I've become... coming up with an excuse of why I don't do things. My life feels like it's in limbo and not going in the direction I would like to and I feel it's because of this. Not that I think I deserve anything good to happen in my life...
Hmm.... It seems like less of a Spiritual problem than it is a Human Problem.
Being Mortal dawns upon us some pretty peculiar habita among the Physical and Spiritual - the main one being that, for some reason, we loose intrest and have mentally-imposed crisi (plural for "Crisis", I do believe) that comes from being Human.
If you want my truest of true advice, and the greatest I have ever conjectured for any friend I have ever had:Close your Eyes - Follow Your Heart - Harm None
Your Heart will never fail you, and this is the basis of what I believe. No matter what you do, if you just do that, then you should be okay. I've had my harder times, and I just followed that advice. Sometimes I lock myself in my room and only think of that (in one extreme case, I basically scribbled "Follow Your Heart" down for an hour on a single page), and near the end it becomes alright...
I know that my Heart never fails me. :]
Blessed Be, Rowan.