HUGE BLESSINGS NEEDED

Post by **Stormy** » Tue Dec 07, 2004 11:50 am

Sounds like FL is setting himself up for the Universe to give him a big fat shoe right up the wazzoo. It's amazing how jealousy and anger can control a person, especially if they fall in with the wrong types who encourage it.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Stormy

Maelroth · Post by **Maelroth** » Tue Dec 07, 2004 12:03 pm

We pray for you and for fl hon, but I gotta say that fl is not thinking clearly and is setting hiself up fo' da big .....wait for it.....it's coming......

KARMIC SLAP!!!!!!!!

morgana · Post by **morgana** » Tue Dec 07, 2004 4:02 pm

Oh Wbdsgnr, I'm so sorry that things are still hard for you. Have you talked to your friends who live locally about all this? I mean I know that it's hard depending on people to get such basic needs as food for you and your cats, but they ARE your friends, so maybe they'd be willing to spot ya every now and then for food so you don't have to completely go hungry. I mean, even my co-workers and I do that, and none of us is in that situation. Just sometimes one of us doesn't have the cash on us for lunch, so we'll take turns helping eachother out from time to time. I know it's hard on the pride to ask, but it is better than going hungry.

Post by **Wbdsgnr1** » Tue Dec 07, 2004 8:25 pm

Thanks for the blessings guys. One of my co-workers gave me all her cat food and litter because she used to have kittens (related to Jasmine but they ran off or died) and now she has a dog so she wanted to get rid of the kitten stuff. So YAY.

But seriously, I am glad you guys are praying for Firelord, and I hope hes reading this but I seriously doubt it. Its like he stopped checking the board the moment I posted this thread. Hes still not answering his cell (Which i think is dead because I have both chargers here with me even tho he could buy another one) and he ignores my online messages.

But its weird cuz I still have so much of his stuff here, even 2 pairs of his pants, and his CDs, etc. But my friends are helping me re-arrange the house, etc to move it into a new era, one that doesn't involve Firelord.

I say blessings for him and I guess for myself every night. I know I have been wrong too but I said I was sorry and thats the best I can do right now. Tonight I just need a friend and surprisingly enough I want to talk to Firelord. *hits herself in head*

I know thats stupid but its what Im feeling.

blessed be

scoia · Post by **scoia** » Tue Dec 07, 2004 8:34 pm

it's not stupid at all...you don't just forget your best friends. Just broke up with my boy myself. Pretty hard sometimes when you're used to having them around so much. There are sometimes though when you do look in the mirror and say ' do I really want to stalk him? Is now the good time to buy a flame thrower?'.

Then is a good time to rent some movies and make with the caramel ice cream.

Twinblade Tel'Morier · Post by **Twinblade Tel'Morier** » Tue Dec 07, 2004 9:55 pm

Even though I am not Pagan or truly christian,(agnostic, mostly, now that I think about it) I will send you all the blessings/prayers/energy I can...hate to see someone stuck in such a position...and hope it works out for the better...

Post by **Wbdsgnr1** » Wed Dec 08, 2004 6:27 am

Well thank you Twin, that means a lot to me.

I had this really vivid dream last night about Firelord. Something about a little trip I hear that hes supposed to be taking to somewhere far away. Im super nervous about getting my money back before he goes.

blessed be

Draconia · Post by **Draconia** » Sun Dec 12, 2004 2:31 pm

We're pulling for you hon, and I am so sorry I haven't been on the board or IM to talk to lately. Semester is over so I will be around more. Wish I could help on the food and money but you are a bit far away, and we are struggling also. You have my thoughts and prayers though and so does Firelord that he will see the error of his ways and makes things better before karma comes and kicks him in the rear end, and believe me it will. >:D<

Post by **Wbdsgnr1** » Sun Dec 12, 2004 3:20 pm

well thank you so much because I am forgetting about him (or trying to at least....) I have already deleted him and Bryan out of my cell phone and off of my yahoo and MSN lists.

Now what to do with the pics of me and Firelord? *Lol*

blessed be

Kystar · Post by **Kystar** » Sun Dec 12, 2004 6:16 pm

That's awful!
You're in my thoughts and prayers, that everything works out for you. Don't be afraid to ask for help from those closest to you, that's the major lesson I learned in the last few years. If your friends and family truly care, they will make an effort to help you pull through.

As for the pictures, if there was something special in the relationship, then I'd recommend simply putting the pictures away somewhere...a box in a closet, and not thinking about them. In time, you'll be able to look at them, and appreciate the relationship's good points without dwelling on the bad.

Good luck!

FyreGarnet · Post by **FyreGarnet** » Sun Dec 12, 2004 6:27 pm

That's what I've done with my pictures. I thought about burning them, or sending them back. But I figured that I'd like to have them one day, so I have them in a shoe box.

FyreGarnet

scoia · Post by **scoia** » Sun Dec 12, 2004 6:33 pm

My thoughts are with you...the hardest thing seems to be finding things to do without having your best friend around the whole time.

Lotus · Post by **Lotus** » Sun Dec 12, 2004 11:12 pm

Actually I did the opposite with all the pictures of me and my ex (including things he had given to me as gifts).
I enjoyed smashing, mangling, or burning everything and am happy that I did so.
Sorry, it brought me joy at least.

It actually upset him a great deal when I destroyed the bracelet his parents gave me for graduation right in front of him.

BB
Lotus

RavenEyes · Post by **RavenEyes** » Mon Dec 13, 2004 7:09 am

Sorry I've not replied to this before now - been super busy recently...
My thoughts are with you Wbdsgnr.. hopefully FL will come to his senses soon and start acting like a human being again

As for the photos... my suggestion is burning... is a great way to get rid of some excess stress, and it makes you feel at least a little bit better.
Hope the kitties are ok!!

Post by **Wbdsgnr1** » Tue Dec 14, 2004 10:42 am

well thank you everyone. he is supposed to of gotten back from colorado (seeing celtic dragon) today.

And i plan on seeing him very soon, in the next 10 days and i have VERY mixed emotions about it. I miss him so much, im so happy, elated, excited, nervous, mad, sad, and confused. I have no clue waht im going to say to him......

I just hope everything turns out ok in the end.

thank you for all your blessings, but i probably still need them for a couple weeks!

i love you guys
blessed be

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